Last Day of Work @ RHyMeS

hello!

i haven't been blog for a long time. just to update you guys..

the problem with regards to the salary issue has been settled.
Everything was an misunderstanding, thanks to the Director Angela Wee.

The fault lies with the Finance Department, limiting its boundaries in payment. They are quite rigid in my situation. In short, i was talking to Angela, she asked, and i related what happened. She said she can solve my problem, and address the issue! It is not npo's fault entirely, anyway, i would be getting my pay after all!

so now, i can go to Japan!!

Resignation

i resigned from my job.

i quit.

i felt miserable.

on Saturday, 15th June 2006, 0900 hours. NPO smsed me.

npo: "Just saw your claim. I only extended your official work here until june 15 like shuren. So, i can't submit the additional days beyond 15 of june. The extra days you asked for was for you to complete your stuff and won't be claimable. I'll let you know when you should come back to demo your work. Thx."

I was terribly upset, betrayed, cheated and apprehensive. How could this happened?

i then replied.

josh: I understand the situation. However, i must say this to you, i am very unhappy about the arrangement. I have my reasons for saying so. I must clarify with you another day.

I BLEW MY TOP!!!

It would mean from 16th June till now, which is about a month, i will not be paid for all the work i did.

What is this!!???? I have my reasons for being angry.

* Yes. I was supposed to stop work on 15th June 2006. However, there were major changes to the 2nd project. I have already completed 90% dating from 9th June 2006. And npo told me to change my project scope. HOW can i POSSIBLY fintsh the new scope within 4 days? It is totally out of the question! (i posted the frustration on my blog). To make the necessary changes, i would need another 2 week.
* I was present @ E-garage from morning till evening. It was VERY OBVIOUS that he saw me after 15th june 2006, still working on the project. He still ask me how was the project going. I was @ the RHyMeS Centre. If i really can't work after 15th June 2006, he could at least TELL ME!! Right? He did not even say, speak, and bothered to talk to me. And now he is telling me this,

npo: " I should have clarified with you that any work beyond june 15 will not be claimable. For that i apologize. I wish i could extend your stay but i can't. "

ARG!!!

is an apology enough to settle everything?
is just a sms suffice to explain the reason?
are you really sincere?

i have enough. i really had. I am annoyed, upset, disturbed, angry, fuming mad, going crazy.

npo made unreasonable changes to my project. On April, npo and i had already confirmed on the project details and methodology. It was to be done according to the proposal i documented. But now, he don't even ask how was the progress of the project. Only when i wanted to implement voice automation function into my project, he then told me to change the scope.

And now, this project is not for the RHyMeS Launch tmr, 18th July 2006, i don't even know whether to go. I wish i have some degree of reconigtion.

Now, i have no pay, for which i worked so hard. It was absurb!

i gotta confront him on wednesday, come to the worst, i will look for the Director.

sad;
what should i do??

NTT DoCoMo

NTT DoCoMo.

My Favorite!

In Love since CommunicAsia 2005 @ Expo, Singapore.

Recommended by this highly professional, very polite and well-groomed JAPANESE Lady.

I went there with my buddies, Fu Yao & Aloysius. As usual, checking out the tech-ies.

i had a funny experience with that Japanese lady, let's call her, Hitomi. FYI, she can't speak fluent English, but with her standard, it is VERy GOOD!

JOSH: こんいちわ！　わたし　わ　ジョセフ　です！　I am vey interested in NTT DoCoMo. Can you tell me more abt your technolgies?

HITOMI: HEYLLO! I am from NTT DoCoMo, JAPAN! Can I Heeppe you?

.................. (talks)..........
....(explains).................
.............................(shows me the cool mobile from JAPAN....
.........i-mode service from JAPAN.....


JOSH: I would like to ask, how can one WORK in NTT DoCoMo??

HITOMI: (looks puzzled)... HhmmMMm.. You cane go to JAPAN, go to any NTT DoCoMo stores, and buy a phoneen. Just buy a phoneen and you can! Very sumple..

JOSH: HUH? What do you mean? Just buy a phone and i can WORK THERE?? WHAT? Maybe you misunderstood the question. I MEAN WORK like you, in NTT DoCoMo.. How can i WORK there?

HITOMI: WORK? HmmMMMm. WORK>...>>/??????? JUst buy a phoneen and OKAY.

JOSH: No! Work!!!!! EMPLOYMENT, JOB, CARRER!!!

HITOMI: OhhhH. you meeean WORK!!! I see you... That you habe to study finish a degree, most likely, in IT Line. Obtain a Level 2 in JPL, Japanese Proficiency Test, and apply for it. Quite simple..

JOSH: AAAAAAA! Okay. I get your point. THANK YOU SO MUCH. ありがと　ございます！

HITOMI hands me a book full of NTT DoCoMo plans and products on release @ Starhub.

COOL!!!

Anyway, that is very nice of her, i mean despite her difficulty in English, she made the effort to communicate with me. I am very impressed. I am very impressed with the technology from NTT DoCoMo Japan.

Afterall, NTT DoCoMo is the leading mobile provider in the world. THe advancing leader in 4G. I want to work there someday!

I must master JAPANESE.


I am IMPRESSED, with this:

Graduation 2006

Hello!! Here are the post for the NP Graduation 2006 on 16th June 2006. We all had a great time together. Here are some photos for your viewing pleasure.

Tin Song & Me. Tin Song is now enrolled into NS, spotting a new hairdo!
Aren't we smart & professional? - Deline, Me & Han Wei
Ivan Ong, Amy Seng & Me. That was inside the VIP Reception.
A great looking pose with our Director, Angela Wee
What are you doing Deline? Great Smiles for the Camera! - Deline, Me & Fu Yau
The KPMG Family, with an extra, Jia Wen's super cute brother & clone
My beloved class, MBC 0344
Kien Seng, Mr Fulu our mentor, & me
Ivan & I having that sleepy look, why? It's so early in the morning
Fabian with 2 very beautiful ladies. Angeline, Fabian & Yuan Yuan. Sorry about the angle.
Our Top Graduate Shuren & Me. Our mouths numb from all that smiling
Good Buddies, Milton, Me, & Nicole






The next post are from the Graduation Dinner & Dance 2006 @ NP Convention Centre.

Looking our best, Deline, Genevieve & ME
JAZZ NIGHT! Genevieve looks gd when she poses.
Don't you think Fu Yau looks kinda MIXED? As in mixed parentage?
Sangar, Shuren, Zhi Xiong & Me
Performances by BIG BEN from the States
FOOD. That attracted our attention, that cute little pinky thing..



















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tired of working

Hello. how are you doing?

i am tired of working. it is not because of the job scope, neither on the programming language which i am unfamilar with.

i am employed as a research analyst/developer for this major project. I guess i have already stated what i am to do during this 3 month period.

this person, i call him npo, is a brillant person. He has LOTS Of ideas, creativity, knowledge and expertise in IT. however, i think he likes to insist on his ways.

it begin like this....

I propose a idealistic plan for a section of the project i am working on. I CRACKED My brain, squeezed till brain-jiuce runs dry. i am very pleased with what i have come up with.

before i begin developing on the idea, i document it and asked for his approval. HE SAID OKAY! - dated APRIL 2006.

and then, now, he turned back on his word. I showed him my 7/8 completed java program.

and

npo: oh. this isn't possible. there are no such machine to do .....

(Sorry, the details are confidential, i would just remove those words)

josh: but, there must be a way, afterall, the concept was used in all MRT stations over singapore!! Surely, we are able to tap on the kind of system used. I am talking about convegience and convience.

npo: NO. Cannot.

I was so taken aback. NPO approved my idea in april. I don;t know whether he have read my proposal. But i took the effort to read, and show it to him. And now, my project is almost done, he said no, cannot, i have to adjust and modify my project. And the deadline is about 4 days.!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARG!

as a programmer, whatever i do is for the interest of the project and the client. I am not doing this because i am paid. No.

I work with dignity. I think of many feasible ways to streamline operations for this project. it is all for this project. He doesn't even care for what i did. perhaps this project is due next year, therefore, there is no urgency for it.

i am just flabbegasted when he said i have to redo. i have already did so many versions of the project just to cater to his concept. My ideas arean't just purely mine.

i did asked many for this views and suggestion. Based on all the gathering, i conclude that way. It is not that my idea was too far-fetched or impossible to fulfill. COME ON! i am doing this because it can be done.

fine. i can follow what you want me to. I can.

but then, you are limiting, constraining, compressing, withholding my creativity, innovativeness.

as a programmer, i am obligated to listen to the BOSS. yes i am. but when it comes to certain areas such as simplility and creativeness, i can give my views too.

true, i am much inexperienced than you. He is a lecturer and a key person in charge of this project. However, if you think that this is the best way/idea, fine, i can cater to your request.

i am just disappointed. I took up this job because the Director ask me to. She personally request me to take up this job. I thank her for that. However, it seems that i felt abandoned. True, i am less capable than my peers in area of programming JAVA.

but i am already trying my very best. can't you sense it?

i give up. i don't have the mood and energy to carry on. I really don't. but my responsibility is to finish it and hand it over.

i will do just that.

JACKETS MANIA

I LIKE THIS ADIDAS JACKET SO MUCH. It was a by-product of german + adidas. I don't know what is the name for it. However, i got this picture somewhere..



I found it @ takashimaya, adidas concept store. and it cost SGD 129. Maybe i will save and get it..

Java Idiot

I am upset, depressed, worried, negative, aprehensive and doubtful.
I am lost, stuck, and unfocused.
I don't know what to do, not how to start,
i do not know where to begin.

I am currently working on this project, it is completely new to me. Although i did learn JAVA, both applets, and application, they are just basic essential knowledge. This projects requires me to harness on J2EE. I need to learn and master the language and methodolgy to create a working application. However, there is no one to guide me. I didn't learn it before. I want to depend on myself to learn and master J2EE. I wanted it so badly. But i can't. I am a JAVA Idiot. Am I?

I felt scared, lost, i lost that vigour and drive in me to learn to explore. I suddenly felt handicapped. Everything is just in a mess. I have to start and study myself. Fine. I did my homework. I just have to be daring enough to work on J2EE. I must complete my project before 15th June 2006. I have to. I need to deliver something fruitful during my 3 months stint in this project.

Everyone has it capability. My 2 friends, who were graduates has great experience and expertise on J2EE. Afterall, they were working on it for their In-House Project. As for me, i am not, i felt stupid, handicapped and lost. What should i do?

Can anyone guide me? Hmmmmmmmmm.. It seems that i am incapable. I lost that confidence in myself. Everyone seems to be doing fine. Going on with their projects. Well, move on JOSH. i have to..

I have just recieved my notice from NUS. IT SAYS "NOT SUCCESSFUL". My application to Information System @ NUS isn't successful. When i recieve this letter, i don't know what to say. I felt that i ought to know my place. How can i, such a student get into NUS, a prestigous university?

My aunties and uncles will surely LAUGH OUT LOUD, they would look down and me and SAY: "STUPID BOY, YOU CAN NEVER GET IN!!!!! MAHUAHUHAUUUAUUAHUAHAUA!!!!!! ONLY MY SON CAN GET INTO NTU, LOCAL UNIVERSITY. HAHA. YOU CAN'T! YOU CAN NEVER. WHAT A SHAME. " WHAT a commend. I detest that kind of environment, from young, i have been subjected to that kind of pressure. From a neighbourhood school to a poly. HIAZ>>>

Whatever it is, i am content, that i can get into SMU. Direct admission. It was nothing to be proud of actually. Just that, i have to get over that disappointment. Can someone comfort me? I need a hug.

Anyway, i just recieved photos from IVAN ONG. PROM NIGHT PHOTOS.. HERE ARE SOME..